sitting on the cold hard chair in tutorial, with the mindless chatter around me and the lecturer droning on about imports and the cold slowly numbing my fingers and feet, i read a friend’s blog and pondered. hard.
stuff i’ve thought about:
having not gone to church a long time, i havent thought about life as before.
i have always, in the past.
now its just school and friends, not really making life count.
there are things i wanna try before i pass, things i wanna say i’ve done and been.
some may chey! i’ve done that before, whilst some go envious.
as a young child, i’ve stole glimpses or sometimes, blatantly stared at dads carrying their kid, playing with them.
i’ve always been envious and wondered how its like having fatherly love.
looking back, i finally realise its better.
its is def better for my parents to divorce when i was young, for me to not remember anything, and could be spared from the immense emotional torture and pain.
yes, i could have tried to reconcile them if i was older, but should i?
he never really cared and as a baby at 2months, with my sis, he beared to leave.
was he worth it?
i wanna shout at the top of my lungs in orchard road.
i wanna see magnificient sights that i stand in awe of which take my breath away.
i wanna get drunk.
i wanna bungee jump, parachuting etc.
i wanna make my mom really proud.
i wanna write something that make pple cry.
i wanna try topping the class.
i wanna go on a blind date.
i wanna stop my nail biting.
i wanna go on a extravagrant shopping spree.
i wanna feel like a star, to have pple fuss about me.
i wanna feel snow.
i wanna go overseas without family or guides.
i wanna learn how to drive.
i’ve wanna be able to sing/dance in front of crowds on the stage.
i wanna speak in front of big big big crowds.
despite that, i’ve been hospitalised for a few months.
i’ve scuba dived.
i’ve been the emcee of school once.
i’ve made pple laugh till they teared.
i’ve made pple cry.
i have a twin.
i’ve been mistaken for a star.
i’ve been mistaken for my sis, who’s not a star.
i’ve fell in and out of love.
i’ve worn a skirt!
and makeup.
i’ve kissed and been kissed.
i’ve got a S in crazy taxi.
i’ve been cold until my lips turned purple.
i’ve carried n been carried b friends in public.
i’ve had heartaches that made me feel like dying.
i’ve cried for strangers.
i’ve never smoked. (:
i’ve spent 160 on a shirt.
i’ve changed 8-9 phones before.
i’ve done crazy crazy stuff, like lying on top of the pool table etc (as a dare)
i’ve been to many many countries (HK,Australia,China,M’sia,Bangkok,Bintan etc etc)
i’ve inspired.
i hug my mom,aunt n gran everytime i see em.
i’ve learnt how to cook.
and the list goes on on on and on.
the cold is numbing my fingers.
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