camp (:

my journey in ulty is passing really fast.
its gonna be a year soon.
hmmm sometimes, i wonder if its such a good thing climbing so fast, having such high expectations of yourself and committing into clubs and national youth.
well, the higher your expectations, the harder you fall.
it sucked really bad when i was declining from my learning curve, kept banging into walls.
things are slooooowly turning up, but i think that fall has made me lose so much confidence.
the expectations’ still there, but the standard isnt.
i feel like i havent played well in AGES.

well, thank god for teammates!
we had a great bonding time during the camp though it was lots of training and shitloads of running.
tues was tiring, but okay for me i guess, cos i went to accompany xeun to the doc.
pick up against nyp grads on tues.
ben made me lead the ‘not graduated’ ones with adam.
leading.is.hard.
but we had fun! (:

i wasnt there the first afternoon, but i reckon what edwin did would be inspiring. he didnt give up.
i know i shouldnt either.
alex too,his determination after the 49th go to drill.
i need perserverance!
secret penpal in camp was fun; just that it wasnt so secret cos everyone wrote their names haha
but it was encouraging nontheless.
well, relationships were strengthed, lessons were learnt and much trust forged.
i liked how much had that common unity when we scrimamged against shiok.
we lost, but i thought it was a good fight (:
well, nyp organisers, we need another camp!
(after my attachment please!)